Stuff All Over

Crazy week, I say... and it's only Monday.

Lots of stuff on my mind, and here's a small sampling.

I'm horrendously excited about something that's many months away: Spring Break '08. Yes, I'm not even in the same semester, but I have to admit one thing: spring break means a lot to me this time. It's my last. I will be announcing my final idea for spring break next week, so stay tuned.

Shifting gears: I generally consider Facebook to be a central pillar of my life. Unfortunately, it's beginning to become my enemy. I'm seeing lots of my old friends and high school peers now moving on from college (I have one more semester left), and some moving onto even bigger ambitions, such as moving out of the country! In a world where I still live with my parents and don't feel very accomplished, I'm insanely depressed about see so much getting done in other peoples' lives. I guess my time will come. In a way, however, I'm already beginning to see a "new me" emerge - in ways I wish I could describe.

I've been quite impressed with a friend of mine. Having been going through some rough times lately (really, really rough), I believe he simply decided that "enough is enough" and has done something that few people really can: turned his life around. Losing weight, moving out, upping the income - the end result is a much trimmer, amicable, and all-around great guy to hang around with, and I'm certainly going to make more time to chill with him outside of work.

Which brings me to my problem: I envy my friend. For all the times that I've wanted to turn my life around, I've simply started a change only to find failure a few weeks (days!?) into it. Granted, my friend seemed to be at a really low point in his life, and I think he deserves every bit of respect that he's getting now for what he's done. Do I have to hit rock bottom before I can truly accomplish some of my goals? I really don't know, but I've done some rotten stuff in my life and have been in some pretty bad spots - I guess they weren't bad enough.

I have, however, made substantial changes to my life before. And I didn't hit rock bottom. Quite the opposite: I saw a potential opportunity, knew what I wanted, and gunned for it, all the while setting a plan to better myself towards that goal. What was all this about? The pursuit of a girl. What makes the present any different, especially in my single-loner-loser life? I think there might just be another chance at love sometime soon... then again, I really don't know...

In random other news, Jonathon Coulton's credits song from Valve's Portal is now on my MP3 player, and the hype is true: as far as video games go, "Still Alive" is one of the best songs ever written. I have yet to play Portal (that'll be this Friday), but I know enough of the game to understand the humor of the song. It's catchy as hell too. Worth a listen.

Anywho, I think it's time to get back to homework. I have a full Tuesday ahead of me, which includes classes, work, homework, food, studying, and writing. Yikes. See you on the flip side.