- I'm quickly entering a period of depression. It's not hard to spot - after work yesterday I suddenly became a different person - less talkative and less willing to agree to a simple "yes" - and it's carried into today quite well. Yes, I'm stressed with my CS project due this week, but once it's complete, I'm on easy street the rest of the semester. It's not that. I really don't know what's causing it this time. There are some factors in my life that could potentially bring me down, but they haven't yet - there's no reason for them to bring me down. Hell, tonight I was finally, finally, finally able to take care of some of my frustrations, but guess what... I feel even worse now. I think part of it isn't that I wanted to do it. I forced myself - poked and prodded - before I finally just pushed myself over the edge. I don't feel much better for doing it, though, and that bugs me... I should feel loads better, right? (ramble... ramble... ramble...)
- Anywho, I have a growth on my right eyelid that is extremely painful. It started Thursday, grew Friday, and is unbearably painful today. Worse, despite denying it all day today, my vision is beginning to blur in my right eye, so if things are looking better by Monday afternoon, it's off to the doctor for me. I'm not sure if my family has a history of severe eye problems, but lots of my family has been in for eye surgeries, so I guess we'll see what happens (Christ, what a shitty pun...).
- In order to help starve off my oncoming depression, I'm taking Sunday as a reboot day. Yes, I have major work to do on my CS project, but I'm devoting my entire day to rebooting and programming, with little else to bug me (eh, at least not until the late evening hours, which I'm looking forward to... it seems to be my only pick-up in life right now - the one thing that makes me feel like the world is mine, no matter how down I am). Hopefully come Monday morning I'll be back to myself. If not, expect me to go nuts.
B3 out.
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