Lost and Bored

I feel poopy.

I'm not getting a damn thing done today, I have to go to bed in a bit, and in general, this weekend feels "blah." New Year's isn't looking terribly better. I was hoping to spend the entire night watching movies, getting drunk, and hanging with friends. Given that some people are busy, my New Year's is regulated to playing video games all day until very late (10:00pm-ish), then spending some time at the apartment for a drink or two (maybe friends?) before heading to bed, probably early.

Given that I'm beginning to want more time to myself, maybe this isn't a bad thing. If I had to rate my productivity over winter break on a scale of one to ten, I would rank in at a negative five: I'm seriously getting nothing done. My two small goals (lose five pounds and write a short story) are not really holding together very well, although I do plan to seriously cut back on my diet next week, so hopefully that'll get me moving along. I'm having trouble getting into a new short story, but I have a few ideas in mind, so I'm hoping that I can push along with that within reason.

If nothing else, I need to find motivation to do the things I love. Typically I always strive for something in life, and thus I'm able to grab hold of my interests with aplomb. Now I'm barely able to stay on the computer or Wii for more than ten minutes without becoming bored, looking for "the next big thing" to do.

One idea that might greatly help me: Community Center. I know I've been talking about going, but again, I haven't driven up enough motivation to get my ass out there. I think weekly or daily exercise would help my mood and motivation tremendously. I just need to make that effort in the first place.

*sigh*

B3 out.