Lost in Transition

I turn to an old classic to kick off tonight:

You look to the stars for answers
Your face glowing in blue
You smile at the thought that there's something out there
Suddenly a smile turns to a stare...

Smash Mouth said it the best. More and more of my smiles have been turning to blank, lost stares. Summer began last weekend for me. I'm lazier than hell with school. The off-time needs to get here now.

My hit list tonight:

• I'm working on a project, now titled "Game Library," which is a Windows VB.NET application that I plan to use to keep track of all the vidoe games I own. I plan to release the beta version of this (currently) non-open-source app within the next few weeks. I'm excited, as this is my first fairly advanced program that I've written to demonstrate my programming abilities.

• I've been thinking about my friends lately, which has led me to think about my past, my present, and my future. I barely remember where I came from, I don't like where I am today, and I have no clue where I'm going next. Fuckingshit.

• Change is the buzzword this semester. Not since I met Lacey my sophomore year of high school have I undergone so much fundamental change over the course of only a few months. Reflecting back on how I started this semester, and seeing how I am coming out of it, the only word that comes to mind, summing it all up, is change. My job has changed, my finances have changed (butt-poor, I'm afraid); I've become a lot closer to Jaime, farther from Lacey (...); video games are a spare-time activity to me now, and I'm taking my future career more seriously than ever. Oh, and then there's all the new people I've met, including Colleen and company :-)

This summer I look forward to my return to biking, getting smashed with Lacey on her 21st birthday, spending lots of time outdoors, and saving up for a new school year... potentially my last!

I'm heading to bed soon, so I'm out.