I can't hide the truth:
I cried tonight. Hard. One of my best friends, Jaime, did not move on to the next round of Buckeye Country Star II. She's an incredible singer, and quite frankly, my new inspiration. Those judges are jerks, and I know we all have bad days, but there will be another time!
In other news...
I don't know how I feel right now. For once it's not girls in my life that confuse me. It's... me that confuses me. I'm constantly having these weird flashbacks - memories if you will - of times long gone. Not just images of my past, but experiences. There are times that I feel like I've moved back in time by five or ten years, to what I would now consider my golden years - early high school, middle school.
As elated as I am about my awesome friends, including my newest peeps from Colleen's posse, I'm feeling as if though I no longer need anyone to be happy, and that a return to the pre-Lacey, super-single-and-proud-of-it-Brandon days are just what I need. I try to spend these warm spring nights reflecting on my past, just to make sure I've become what I envisioned so many years ago.
It's 10:30 and I have work in the morning. I'm going to bed in a bit, but not before returning to my reflections and, perhaps... crying a little bit more... not for the stresses in my life, but for the Brandon I fear I've become...
2 comments:
What?! What the hell is wrong with those people?
It really is just like American Idol.
No fear is needed. I miss that Brandon I met so long ago, when we were both lonely and in a new place. Now, we have both changed so much. But are you happy with the way it turned out?
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