What Happened Sunday

This past Sunday evening I had a mental collapse - the kind that I have not experienced since high school.

Throughout high school I occasionally experienced immense amounts of stress from all areas of my life as they converged all at once. Social stress - from friends, peers, and crushes; academic stress - pressure from my classes to do well; work stress - balancing a paycheck with my free time - and personal stress - am I on the right path in my life?

In college I learned to deal with these stresses by diversifying my routines and achieving balance among the stresses in my life. I balanced my time with my friends, my girlfriend, school, and work as best as I could, although school sometimes got the short end of the stick. I stayed as happy as I could and that was all I could ask for.

In the past year, however, despite having what I consider a pretty damn good life in Findlay, I have been stressed yet again. What is causing this stress? A variety of things, but it is not the obvious things such as work and money that worry me. There is something more to it; something personal that bugs the back of my mind and keeps me from feeling "just right."

While I am still trying to narrow down what I feel and why I feel it, I do know that I am beginning a long-term process of change that is long overdue and very necessary. Now more than ever, I need to do what is best for me.

B3 out.