Pushing Onward

Here I am -- another Monday morning cloudy overcast blankets northwest Ohio and I'm pushing onward into our eighth week of school.

Bowling Bash could've been called Blowing Bash by some respects. About half of the people invited didn't show up, but to be perfectly honest...

I prefered that.

I had great fun with those people who did show up, and the night as a whole, despite not making it to the bars, was a fun one.

I also learned how easy it is to be a freaky-guy when your sister's friends look three years older than they really are. Melissa introduced me to a girl named "Katie" -- her boyfriend's sister -- who actually did somewhat resemble a younger, blonde version of Lacey. Which in of itself is a bad thing -- I found her somewhat cute, until I learned she's only 15 years old.

Yikes.

In other news... I have lots to look forward to this week. High-school style drama is heating up fast, with friends liking friends, a sweet birthday party coming up (Kelly!), and Spring Break '06 just around the corner... I should have a fairly busy, positive week.

Stay tuned.

Countdown

2.25.2006


B3's
Bowling Bash
Winter '06

Bowling Bash is upon us.
Be there.



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What A Night

Indeed.

I've spent most of my night on my butt tonight. Usually I can find this a problem - tonight, it's great to get off my feet for a change. Not having to work tomorrow is sweet as well.

I can't wait for Bowling Bash tomorrow, though... man is it gonna be sweet.

Until then, I'm out.

Wheat-What?

One of my most-followed favorite Mobogs is... wheatpennyjenny... and apparently she has her own website, too... at least, a simple one...

http://www.wheatpennyjenny.net/

Artistically beautiful with powerful blue eyes... simply stunning. Hawaii looks like a beautiful place to live.

Almost There... Almost...

I have finsished the first third of "Almost Home 2" - my short-story follow up to "Almost Home."

I've decided to break the sequel into three sections, which will be released on their own as episodes. Quite frankly, the entire story arc for AH2 puts it in novella or novel length, so this breakup of the story can keep it readable to the audience I seek.

With that said, beginning today, Thursday, Feb. 23, I set out with the following goals:

• Proofread and prepare AH2: Part 1 for final release to public. One month is my goal.
• Come up with a full name ("Almost Home 2" is and always was tentative). Each of the three episodes will get their own sub-title as well.

For anyone who's read the first "Almost Home" and would like to contribute to sequel title ideas, please send them my way.

Changes

As you can see, I'm slowly making some changes to my Blogger site. First is the color scheme... later on I'll be moving some content around and will be finally making this site my own. If you came from the BrandonBruno.com Portal Page, expect some changes there too!

Again, Alanis said it the best...

Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, till you died
But you're still alive

Interesting song, anyway.

My Tuesday was insane. Classes all day... homework in between... girls nowhere to be found, besides Lacey, who is quickly becoming a problem for me. Eh, maybe I'll get to that later. Short version: being her best friend is hard when I'm the one hearing about all the guys in her life. All the guys except me.

Oh well...

Anyway, this time in 24 hours I'll be driving home from B-Dubs. It's Wednesday... my easy day...

Yippee, and I may be spending most of it, even B-Dubs, fairly alone...

But it would be awesome of Kelly could come! Haha...

Lost

Between sleep and being awake, I find myself sitting uselessly on my chair, staring at my computer monitor for no other reason than to hope I don't fall asleep at the wheel of life.

So far, I've been successful.

Back in Blue

Yeah, that's right... I'm back... What a weekend!

First off, this entire weekend has been about work - much as the past eight or nine weekends have. I'm sick of it. Meijer can suck on a fat one - every damn weekend I end up working the same thing: 4 to 8 Friday, 6a to 2p Saturday, and the same on Sunday. Today was like pigs could fly: I worked a 9 to 5 Sunday shift. Interestingly, it was in perfect parallel to Lacey's 9 to 5 shift.

Next weekend means hell will freeze over: I only have one four hour shift on Saturday, able to enjoy the rest of my weekend with The Big Playground at the Rec Center, and of course, Bowling Bash on Saturday. Sunday is Brandon Day - I'll sleep in until about 10am, and spend the entire day doing... nothing...

I can't wait...

A lot has been happening on the Lacey front - which in and of itself implies more than what I have time to write about. For now, I'm off to enjoy the rest of my night.

Out.

One More...

Ah hell, one more for tonight before I head to bed. This one comes from one of my heroes of sorts... Alanis Morissette - modified a bit...

You seem very well, things look peaceful
I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know
Did you forget about me, Misses Duplicity?
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face
How quickly I was replaced
And are you thinking of me when you fuck him?

Goodnight, my peeps...

More Than I Bargained For?

So time for my final update for a while.

I have class all day tomorrow followed by work, then a short date at DQ. After that I'm back home for bed as if the day never happened. Work at 6am Saturday. You'll probably hear from me again then. Maybe by then I'll feel better about life too... who the hell knows...

I've entered another slight "downer" slump after today.

The reality of doing "the right thing" versus doing "what my heart says" ... well, they are two very different worlds.

The rest of my battle with Lacey will be waged not between us or friends, but within myself - my heart tells me to push onward with the one I love, while my mind (not to mention, my friends) tell me to move on with my life.

The silent stint begins. How long will it be before I go insane again?

Warmer weather really needs to get here soon.

Waves

Is my life stuck in a loop... a constantly repeating pattern of "like Lacey", "screw Lacey"???

Right now I'm at least her friend, although I'm afraid that may fall apart soon too...

Ugh...

Wednesdays

Here it is - Hump Day - and the most important day of the week for me.

It's halfway from one weekend to the next, which is usually a good thing for most people... for me, it simply means that I'm halfway to returning to the hellhole known as Meijer.

Wednesday's are usually my short days. I only have two classes, and after 3:30pm I'm free until around 9:00pm when I rush off to B-Dubs for the night. It's always the same thing, too - I get lunch at 12:30, go to classes, head home, goof off until about 7:00pm, do some homework, and try my best NOT to eat (gotta have an appetite for B-Dubs!).

B-Dubs always starts off fun - meeting Jaime and her friends there is a blast. As the clock inches closer to 11:00pm, though, it's always the same: Stan shows up, and Lacey shortly thereafter.

Most people would assume that this is where I begin to get upset about my night (and indeed, I have before). Tonight will be a bit different, namely in that I won't be able to stay the entire time like I usually do, instead opting to head home early and spend some time getting comfortable with my pillow, and hell, maybe my Gamecube.

I simply don't devote enough time to myself anymore. Between school, friends, and work, I haven't had a "Brandon Day" in four or five weeks. Tonight I'm hoping to end my day with a "Brandon Hour" as a start.

Cheers.

You Know You're Right

Kurt Cobain was a god of grunge-rock - plain and simple.

He always said it best:

I'm so warm and calm inside
I no longer have to hide
Let’s talk about someone else
Steaming soup against her mouth
Nothing really bothers her
She just wants to love herself

I will move away from here
You wont be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
I always knew to come like this

Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to feel
Pain!

Groupies and Sleep

Space indeed.

I've finally come to a decision on things - things with Lacey and others.

Well... things should be "back to normal" tomorrow in me being good ol' single Brandon...

Now I'm off to move my car closer to campus, deal with a quiz in my 6pm class, and meet with my group, for which I am way too tired to do. Ugh...

Tied Up...

I will not have my friends fight amongst themselves over each other. I won't mention names. Maybe things would be smoother if I stayed farther from certain people than I promise myself that I'm doing now...

Pushing Onward

As I set in the arcade at the moment, blantantly skipping class, my mind focuses on one thing...

Possibilities...

I know I can't spend my life focusing on one person - at least not at this point... not Lacey... not now...

So the alternative - seemingly the way to go at this point - is to focus on my friends, much have I have up to this point. I can't let my mind wane back into memories. Time travel isn't possible, yet... and even if I could go back in time, I'm not sure if I would want to...

But...

Here's to my friends, on this February 14th...

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

Jaime, Brittany, Aryn, Brent, Austin, Kelly, Lacey, Amanda, Colleen, Ashley, Jeremy... all friends that I'm every so grateful for having. I love you guys.

Thank Gosh for Night Minutes

What now?

It's the long, meaningful phone conversations that I miss... much like the ones I had last night.

But to what end? As far as my short-term situation goes, there is nothing. In the long term, though, I think I'm set... :-)

Updates!

Yay, I finally updated a bunch of shit.

I have a new Blogger pic up, along with a new Facebook pic for those who are on Facebook. Also, notice the webpage counter that I silently added to this page on the lower right side. Beautiful!

A Case of the Mondays

Actually... even though it's Monday, I'm fairly excited for the coming week.

I've reorganized my life in a dramatic way - down to the minute, almost anywhere, I could tell you where I'll be and what I'll be doing - simply for the sake of having a constant direction throughout my day.

With that said, I'm thrilled to have a stress-free start to my week. I have a date this week, which I'm looking forward to, in addition to the usual Frickers on Tuesday and B-Dubs on Wednesday. Thursday will be a fun night - ice skating, DQ, and DDR at my place. I hope a lot of the people I invited can make it.

I'll update later today. Tonight's goal is to get all-new pics of my up on Facebook and Blogger. I mean, look at that mug to the right? Eek...

Where's the Line

Do I post too much private information on my blog?

I've heard people making comments about such a possibility lately...

I love to write, and I write to vent myself - as a solace, really. Guess things should change...

Rocket Man

And I think it’s gonna be a long long time
Till touch down brings me round again to find
I’m not the man they think I am at home
Oh no no no I’m a rocket man
Rocket man burning out his fuse up here alone

Indeed.

Pains

I have this uncontrollable urge to write.

I want to work on my short stories - "Almost Home 2" or "Blocchi" should be good canidates - but my mind is only wrapped around the usual (hint, see the previous post)...

I'm getting to the point that I can't think straight anymore. School, work, sensibility: all out the window. Am I falling in love again? Is it premature?

So much to think about, so little time.

Tiny Dancers

Okay then... Celebration is over!

Back to the usual posting:

I'm torn.

To sum things up without giving anything private away:

One girl in my life is the source of all my stress, and the answer to all my problems.

Another girl is a special friend for whom I see as "the next big thing."

And the final one is a girl that I met years ago, but only now know her name. And she's hot :-)

Here's to the Next Hundred

I never thought this blog would last a week when I began writing it. Here I am months later, and I'm posting my 100th post.

I know you can't see it, but I'm giving myself a huge pat-on-the-back.

The CS JOb Fair on Monday was nothing more than a battle of wits - me trying to keep my head straight. I'm not sure how my resume looks to any of the companies, but I'm hoping I hear something back soon. Meijer stinks.

Things have begun to rapidly change for me in the last two days. I'm talking major change.

I'm beginning to feel a million times more positive about my life than I ever have. It seems like I have a million friends, and everyone of them plays a part in my life right now. Some parts are bigger, some are smaller. It is damn good to know that someone will always be there for me.

A rather dramatic (and surprising) change for me comes from the world of girls. Lacey is having major troubles. I'm not talking about school or work... not to be too personal: I think she is finally experiencing some of the things that I knew she would - things like longing, jealousy, confusion... things I've had to go through during our breakup process.

But at the same time, I've been having some fairly deep conversations with a long-time friend of mine: Carey. I admitted to both her and Lacey that I have a fairly small crush on Carey, but I think maybe I always have - there's something about her always BSing attituding that I find attractive.

Then there's a new girl... a mystery girl. Two years ago I found myself oddly attracted to a complete stranger, for whom I never, ever talked to. Now, through Aryn and a few other friends, I found her name to be Colleen. We talked on AIM last night for a couple of hours, and she's turned out to be a pretty fun person. I think I'm going to ask her out on a date next week - just for possibility's sake.

In the long run, everything comes down to me being me. My time with Lacey was unforgettable. Now I'm ready to make new memories, whether I'm single, dating, involved, or just doing what I do best: being lost in life, love, and lust.

Here's to the next hundred.

Cheers.

The Ultimate Everything

"The Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destinty" is a Flash animation that's all over the web now, and the 3:30 MP3 track is all over my ears lately.

Google "Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destinty" and go crazy - and listen for that damn-catchy chorus!

GIRLS!

Aryn sort of asked me out tonight.

It was cute.

And yet, I stood with a blank void in my mind. On one hand, she's a very awesome friend that I can see myself still calling every week until the day I die. But on the other hand, that's just it - I'd hate to ruin that friendship.

Plus, Lacey was right - I don't have a "type."

*sigh*

So many names: Jaime, Aryn, Ashley, Lindsay, Bridget, Carey and dare I say it... Lacey.

Girls everywhere... I'm so lost.

But I'll say one thing... come Valentine's Day, everything will be all right.

My Immortal

"I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along."

Whitey

I have no idea where we got it, but a 2004 hit from Dido, "White Flag" found its way onto my computer. I'm pointing my flag at my sister... she's always into my AllofMP3 account - but that's the beauty of cheap music - easy to download!

Anyway, wow... what a song...

I totally forgot that it existed, but I listened to it about six times tonight - now seven.

What a beautiful song. It's quite true, too - I will always be in love. Does Lacey think I've moved on yet? Moving on is so damn hard. And now it's almost midnight, and my mind is starting to sink into that blurry line between dreams and reality - it's a messy place. I should go to bed soon.

I let the cat out of the bag. I told Lacey my biggest secret yesterday. In September of last year, before we broke up, I spent far more money on her than I should have for an engagement ring that I'll never get to use. If you ever, ever, EVER buy an a ring, make sure it's returnable! I won't make that mistake again!

You too would feel like shit if the one you wanted to marry never gave you the chance to ask.

I'm going to bed.

New Poem!

A quick and dirty one... but it speaks volumes!

De Dentelle
by Brandon Bruno

Give it up to the man you like,
fuck him hard and take a hike.
See the one you loved before,
pound his heart through the floor.

The Anti-Google

"Hello there the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley"

Name that song without Googling the lyrics and I'll give you five bucks.
Save my soul from the void in which it's falling, and I'll give you a hug.

Bowling Bash Website

The Bowling Bash website is now up and running. Follow the link to the right, and in case you're lazy, I've provided it below as well.

I look forward to a lot of my peeps being there!

Bowling Bash Winter 2006 Website