... And one day I left Meijer, and my life forever changed.
It's impossible to ignore how important this year is for me. My mind has been constantly churning with thoughts, worries, and excitement over the future: how will the remainder of the semester go? What will it feel like to never have to go to school again? How will job hunting go? What about my loan repayments? I'm almost so distracted by these questions that I'm having trouble focusing on my life at the moment.
So what does Meijer have to do with anything? Well today I got a firm notion of how serious of a change graduation is. Lacey is moving to Columbus tomorrow, and today was her last day at Meijer. I feel bad - although not for the same reasons that many might think...
From early high school to a relationship to outright war (we really argue a lot at Meijer), she's been a pretty constant friend in my life for quite some time. So it does pain me a bit to know that the last two years has been spent with us fighting and feuding a lot more than we should have. I usually let jealousy and my past get in the way of being a good friend to her. I wish I didn't let that happen. Five years ago we laughed when thinking about "when we grow up" - like where we will be, who we will be with, and how things will generally go. That moment is here for a lot of my friends in many ways. Lacey is a sort of finality for me: her departure to Columbus pushes her out of my life for good, closing quite a long chapter in my life.
Of course, I have already started a new chapter: one where I'm quickly aspiring to be a serious computer engineer, a successful creative writer, and an active, on-the-go person who puts friends and family first, while always maintaining a highly-positive outlook on life. This semester has meant a lot to me in terms of building these things: I'm doing great in my CS classes, I have a solid start on a potential novel that my workshop class has thus-far loved, I'm capable of sustaining myself on the road, and I have a wonderful girlfriend and parents who fully support me.
Despite inevitable hardships in the near future - loan payments, job hunting, moving out, etc. - I'm keeping a positive spin on my future and to be honest... I'm looking forward to it. Just a few more great weeks of school to go, and then I'm free.
Oh yeah, and it's bloody fucking beautiful outside today. I'm off to walk the dog.
B3 out.
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