In a random twist of events, I've found myself in the past three or four days completely unmotivated by anything. I would like to blame it on work draining me five days a week, but I know it's not... I'm simply have a hard time being interested in anything that generally interests me. Video games, writing, biking, working out, sex, my gadgets... I'm just lost on it all.
I noticed this most recently when my new phone came. Being a jack-of-all-trades, top-end, business-class PDA phone, I've been looking forward to getting it for weeks. Two days after getting it, I find it so integrated into my daily life that I have no interest in its "awesomeness." I'm the same way with video games - I play about five minutes of a dozen game everyday and then move on, uninterested in any of them. The same feeling is beginning to pan out to my friends.
Yes, school is coming, and a certain amount of stress is expected with that. But to lose interest in every major aspect of my life? I've been in this place before, and I know that it's a precursor to many other 'bad' things... Shit, I don't even feel like blogging much anymore.
Hopefully things pick up for me in a week and a half. Right now, the only thing that even mildly interests me is sleep and silence - in other words, complete loneliness.
Ah, to be lonely again... such a wonderful feeling sometimes.
Out.
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