Yesterday I bought a new bike. A Trek 7.3 FX fitness bike, to be exact. I began this summer with a strong desire to bike my ass off, and thus far that is what I have done. I have also been very serious about accomplishing all of my goals for the year, number one of which is to finish 40 Pounds Down. I am no longer in "casual mode" with this goal. I am balls-to-the-wall serious about accomplishing this before my 27th birthday on October 4th, so between now and October I will be biking, running, hiking, and swimming. Nonstop.
I have to stay busy. Over the long Fourth of July weekend I rebooted and unfortunately did not accomplish nearly what I wanted to accomplish in three days. Despite spending all weekend refocusing myself, I have actually felt a little more "blah" and a little less focused than I should be by now. To that I ask myself: what the fuck is wrong?
To be honest, while I try to keep myself busy, I do not think I am keeping my mind busy enough. I can bike and write and hike and swim all I want, but I ultimately find myself focusing on just a few constant thoughts all day, every day. It is worrisome; I am distracted by too-few things all day long.
So from now until the end of summer I am going all-out with my 40 Pounds Down plan: nothing stops me, nothing else matters (this is slight hyperbole, of course). The point is that I need to finish what I started this year: a tremendous focus on myself and only myself so that I may get exactly where I want to be at 27: in damn-near perfect physical, financial, and psychological shape. It will happen.
B3 out.
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