Surrender, Surrender

With the new year coming up, I am beginning to wonder if the B3 of old is dead. Just where do I stand? What kind of person am I? Where am I going and what do I have to do to get there?

Pardon me for a moment while I step outside of the usual techno-babble of Critically Correct and instead babble about myself.

What have I traditionally been? The label B3 has always stood for many things, but generally it has been a way of defining myself: I am a nice person, a goal-oriented person, a productive person. I love writing, biking, cooking, and tearing down every aspect of my daily life for analyzing. I am a creative person, an active person, and above so many things, a social person.

Since I have moved out on my own, very few of these things have stuck with me. I have the urge to write, but when I sit down nothing comes out. I wish I could bike or be active, but when it comes down to it, I am too tired or the weather too cold. I have my own kitchen and all the time I need, but I find microwave food to be much easier than cooking a meal. Am I still creative? I'm not sure; I sure as hell don't feel creative lately. I'm lazy, I like my alone time, and being social is getting harder and harder for me. What a rut I'm in, eh?

Remember that Reboot Weekend I needed way back in September? I never did get around to that, and I'm really feeling the pinch now. If 2010 - and the next decade - start off as bad as 2009 is ending, I may be setting myself up for a very bad future. I need to either get back on track or redefine what defines me.

With a long and silent sigh, B3 out.