Tuesday, June 17, 2008

So Tired, So Lost

I've been terribly tired lately, and I can't seem to figure out why.

I do work 6am to 2:30pm a lot, but it's nothing out of the ordinary, really. I try to get as much sleep a night as I can, but it still isn't enough. I'm beginning to think that other aspects of my life are interfereing with my fatigue: I'm certainly a bit overweight, but not obese (screw you, Wii Fit); my eating habits might have something to do with it: I'm about as far from a balanced diet as one could be, so I'm thinking that a change is needed there. And milk. I need more milk in my diet... I'm pretty sure the constant foot problems that I'm having relates to my severe lack of vitamin D in my diet.

But to avail! I have a dream summer that I want to live out, and it looks like this:

I should wake up every morning for work with a quick, hot shower; following would be a "raw" breakfast of fruit and yogurt, or cereal with an extra glass of milk on the side. Finally, before heading out the door, I would take ten minutes to stretch myself out and follow a few Wii Fit routines to prep myself for a long day at Meijer. Right now, I'm just too tired in the morning to do anything other than shove a microwaved sandwich down my throat before taking a cold shower just to wake up.

At work I proceed to follow through with a tight "to-do" list that sends me from one task to the next, with a weekly goal to finish all my core work in four days, leaving the fifth day free every week to get miscellaneous tasks done.

After work, I return home to check the usual: email, Facebook, etc... basically make sure my online life is still alive and kicking.

Following this I grab a quick snack (peanut butter sandwich or another bowl of cereal) before departing on a two hour bike ride to and from Grand Rapids, Waterville, or wherever else I feel like pursuing that day.

By dinner time (around 6pm), I'm back home, cooled off, and able to enjoy dinner with my family. I retire for the night by working on programming, writing, or gaming, depending on the night of the week. I'm in bed by 8:30 or 9:00pm, ready to roll for the next day.

Oh man, what a routine that would be. Problem is, I don't have any time in that schedule to see my friends or girlfriend, which right now command a good chunk of my time after work everyday.

I thought that graduating would bring a sense of balance to my life and allow me to do the things that I want to do... so where is it?

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