Waiting, Waiting, Waiting...

I think I have some form of anxiety...

I've been waiting anxiously for my new phone to come... I've missed the package delivery from UPS already, and it'll come once more, but not during a time that I can reasonably be available to receive it. I'm bummed. I've literally spent my entire Tuesday bumming around the house, playing video games, and anxiously watching out our picture window, hoping that UPS might make one more delivery attempt today (they usually come at night, not in the morning... what gives?). I feel pathetic: I'm barely even getting anything done for school (although I am getting a bit of writing done). I'm frustrated to high hell by this phone situation; enough to give me a headache and a horribly depressed feeling. What a waste of a day.

But then again, it's been a rough day. I keep asking myself "why?" ... I've recently done something that has really made me feel like shit - but why? It wasn't anything bad, technically, and there was never any resistance... am I ready for this yet? I feel like I've violated a hush-hush social more, yet there really isn't any reason for me to feel so down, or so I'm told. I still feel like shit, and I'm scared to be put in another similar situation soon (as in, like tonight).

:-\ I think I'm going to cut my losses today and call it a day. Time for videogames.

Out.