Does history repeat itself? I have not felt this down and out for quite a few years, even including my breakup with Lacey in 2005. There is a rash of reasons, all including close friends, work problems, and too heavy of a school workload.
But are things as bad as I feel they are? After all, a being 22/23 year old looking back on my high school years, it is easy for me to realize that many of my stresses then were not as severe as I thought them to be. But how can I look at all of my combined situations that fall on me today and not legitimately stress?
The logical and safe answer is, of course, to make decisions a day at a time and not look too far ahead into the future. I find that debating future possibilities is a worthwhile effort for much of my life, but at a time when the outcome of any of my problems could be cast in a negative light, it is painful to think of the future. Hence, I only consider my problems in the short term, knowing that much of the long-term outcome of my actions today can only be left to fate. I will not, however, ignore my mistakes (eek...).
Turning away from, stresses in my life, I can now try to push onward towards a brighter future.
Take for example the other day. A couple days ago, I had an incredible day in downtown BG: I ate Qdoba, bought two CDs (Counting Crows collection!), sampled The Cookie Jar, and met a wonderfully nice person in the process. Unfortunately, a day like this is few and far between for me, and of course, on a night like tonight, it's back to work for me :-(
I sure can't wait for that vacation to start next Saturday.
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