The Savior

I feel invigorated.

Like someone pushed “reset” on my life, my life feels like it is starting over, as if I have a second chance to define who I am. All this from four days in the Smoky Mountains.

Is it a chance to be a new me?

I’m not sure – right now I’m having a huge feeling of nostalgia. The music in my ears are the mixed jams of Kid Rock and Bush – with the latter letting a million memories of times gone by pour into my waking conscious, reminding me of who I used to be in the pre-Lacey days.

Not dependant on any one person or thought, my mind and creativity wondering from one thing to the next, trying to discover and make sense of the world around me.

Today I feel as I if I should start my life over. My return to school won’t be a continuation of that of which I left, but my first steps into freeing my mind and body.

I was a C-average college student.
Now I’m an all-A powerhouse Computer Science Major.

My job at Meijer was stressful.
It will soon be a 6-hour-a-day mindless escape that more than handsomely pays the bills.

Girls used to be a mind-numbing chore.
Now I’ll simply do whatever I feel is the right thing with all my friends.

My mind remains clear over this wonderfully-warm spring break. Spring is just around the corner, and a four-year-in-the-making rebirth is soon to follow.

The river is loaded,
I’ve been there today,
Took it some questions,
She does me again,
I’d die in your arms,
If you were dead too,
Here comes a lie,
We will always be true.

- Little Things by Bush

I don’t wanna come back down from this cloud,
Taken me all this time to find out what I need.

- Comedown by Bush