Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Finally!

Here it is, the last day of school. Almost... in a way.

I literally have nothing to do today besides exams. Indeed, the highlight of my morning until then will be an exciting 10:30am wake up call for lazy butt. Okay, she's not really that lazy, but I understand the convenience of wake up calls, and I'll certainly do anything for her nowadays...

And therein lies one of my fears. Excuse me for talking out of my ass for a change (brutal honesty seems to upset people), but one of my core problems is that six years ago I told myself I would never again like anyone besides Lacey. I swore it (despite being atheist), I hammered it into me, and when we dated, I promised my life to her. There was no other option.

Then college came along, and with it, new people, some exciting, some shitty, and others... mysterious. Enter "her" (blah, blah, you know you who are...). Casual glances between strangers, random run-ins, and it took a full year before I could attach a name to a face.

Long story short (and to save a lot of bullshit in the middle), I have had to come to terms that I do indeed like someone besides Lacey, all at the same time that Lacey is treating me like crap anyway... so what exactly is holding me back from displaying my true feelings?

As it turns out... nothing...

Time to have some fun!

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